When Mary was born and I saw her for the first time, I was so amazed at her beauty. Her beautiful round face, tiny nose, even tinier lips, and head of soft, fluffy black hair. I never imagined her so gorgeous, but there she was and she was mine- and I was hers. Just as I fell in love that day, she loved me from the start. As soon as I brought her to my chest so I could see and tell her I loved her, she looked into my eyes and stopped crying. I can still remember the way she felt- her warm little body scrunched into a ball, sleeping on my chest as we took naps together on our old, red velvet couch.
This tiny, helpless ball of love is now a walking, talking, tall, and beautiful five year old. Today I signed her up for kindergarten. I can't believe she will soon be leaving our house, leaving our family to be amongst strangers for 3 hours everyday. I'm excited for the things she will learn and how much her mind will grow, but I'm so worried- about the things she will learn. I wish I could keep her in a little locket around my neck with her sister and brother too, and keep her there forever around my neck, next to my heart so she never had to hear bad words, get her feelings hurt, and all those other things you learn outside of academics at school. I'm so scared for the day when she comes home crying because someone told her something mean or didn't want to be her friend.
Although I wish she never had to feel and go through these things I know that in the end they will all be good for her and help her become a more dynamic individual. I just wish there was an easier, more controlled way of doing it- a way where drugs, molesters, and such were not apart of the equation. Unfortunately it is though, and all I can do is teach her about those things and hope that my influence is enough to keep her safe and away from them.
It's so scary how fast they grow up. I can't imagine how I'll feel when Jake starts Kindergarten. I think that will depend on where we are. That picture of Mary is so beautiful! I love fluffy hair!
Oh my goodness! You signed her up for Kindygarten already!?!?! YIKES! I wish I knew where we'd be in the fall...I can't believe they're that big!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hi Janette,
I hope you remember me. It's been a few years since we were neighbors. It was so neat to stumble across your blog tonight! I love what you said about Mary here. I remember when I met you thinking that she was just unbelievably beautiful!
I hope you're well. I sometimes wish we were neighbors still.
Nona